right.

marhaba! hehe, that means hi in turkish.  anyway hi guys!

bleargh................tomorrow is 25th of june = HELL. yes, school begins tomorrow. how sickening is that?

i just hate it this is because my homeworks are all incomplete. lol. well come on, it's HOLIDAYS. not HOMEWORKINGDAYS. i don't know what i just said but it's ok hahahahahaha.

but let's look on the brighter side.....

we get to meet our friends! 

i hope they are still the same, no changes no nothing. just the same person i became friends with. *cross fingers*

it's so scary to see someone you really love change, like really. i don't like changes, lol okay if the changes are good, then it's ok. but, bad changes? not really, hate them. because really, friends and family are invaluable to every person on earth! 

omg, i just logged in facebook and look at this guys..........

what the fuck. SERIOUSLY? MASTURBATING IN THE TRAIN? sick sia. SICK!!! -.-"  this is super depressing, i mean. why are singaporeans acting this way? everything seems to be happening on public transport. seriously -.-" nonsensical lah. go do it at home or something where nobody can see you. argh. 

i'm just speechless right now.......

OKAY LET'S SKIP THAT PART.

i'm still wondering what it will be like tomorrow. we're closer to O levels. 4 more months i think :/

i can already foretell what my teachers are going to say, for example " no time already" " you guys cannot play anymore. it's time to focus" "no use crying when you get your results" and etc. well! i just wanna finish my o levels, do it well and good and head off to poly. hmm, i wish to join nanyang poly :) get into School of Hospitality (SOH). after that gonna pursue my dreams to be an airstewardess ^^  hee, i have big dreams too you know. and yes! NYP malay dance is..........................incredible. i've seen them dance before. and needless to say that they're fantastic. guess who's the instructor? hehehe. the same person who taught us malay dance in sembawang secondary. yes, Cikgu Zairin. he's not typical, that's why we love him! 

please ignore my face. HAHAHA I WAS SECONDARY ONE! Merak Kayangan' 08

i feel sad looking at that picture. honestly i miss every single one of them. the old times and such. i'm proud to be a part of Merak Kayangan and also DirgaHayu Seni. really proud!

oh and by the way. some people just annoy the shit out of me on twitter. LIKE REALLY? hahaha. i hope you dig what i'm saying cause i don't wanna elaborate here. HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE argh.

okay i think it's time for me to go. gotta complete my comprehensions and pack my bag....krik krik. 

OKAY CAN I NOT GO SCHOOL TOMORROW? hais. oh and guys. i think you should hear 'We are young by FUN!' it's fantastic. 

good bye readers! 

much love, xx

awesomemekelatis & ASYAKELALEH!

OLA GUYS! 

it's almost 8pm, time flies so fast. and unfortunately, it's our last saturday to enjoy )': 

schools are re-opening this monday.....wow that sucks. whenever we're in school, time goes by very......very.......SLOWLY. holidays? you guys should know the answer. more homeworks, more scoldings and definitely more pressure. FOR ME! and also for those who are taking the national exams this year :/

woah, the thought of it send chills down my spine. honestly, you can't live in Singapore without education. the first thing they'll ask for when you go for a job interview is your qualifications. obviously if you didn't do well, they won't accept you. and when they don't accept you = no work = no money = YOU WILL DIE  x( 

AM I RIGHT OR AM I RIGHT? hee.

level of complexity to live in Singapore : 1000000000000000000 k i'm just kidding.

i'm contemplating to live in London when i'm big enough. but i can only do that if i got ze $$$$$

THEN I CAN HAVE THEIR ACCENT. OMG, cool huh. the boys there are kinda cute too. but jodoh i dengan zayn malik, so takpe lah. focus on him je. :')

currently listening to the full album of THE BEATLES! i can't stress this enough, they're a legend.

so yesterday, we were in the train. we were laughing away. and this woman "TSKKK" at us. and gave us a glare. bitchplease. and i shouted "bapak kau nya train pe sial" (your father's train or what)

woah, i sound like a minahrep huh. i don't know lah why they're acting like that. it's very intricate to explain. okay yes, maybe we did make some noise, but hello. you expect us to stand quietly in a train? as if it's a boot camp or something? we're humans. we tend to laugh at the funniest thing and also do silly things. if you can't stand any noise, might as well you live in a grave. just saying people, just saying. 

i don't really what to blog about now.............krik krik.

OH YES! i feel like doing a video tag.. wait correct or not? video tag? lol! with my closest friends and my sister. yay. maybe i should lah :)

i feel so disappointed with myself )': I DIDN'T WENT TO THE GYM OFTEN THIS HOLIDAY AND I AM VERY SAD ABOUT IT! i have the spur to loose weight but i don't know why i just couldn't bring myself to do it. okay honestly i felt like giving up. cause i know it will take very long to loose weight. LOL PLEASE DON'T THINK THAT I AM FAT. i am not....i hope. i'm boncet. YES NO SLIM STOMACH. i tend to drink more water, i don't eat a lot. honestly i don't. but i just drink a lot. but it's okay, i'm sure i'll own that flat stomach in the future. for sure i will. chey.

okay i sound so depressing. hahahahahaha!

i'm still thinking about school. argh this bites! i don't even know what to bring this monday. i'm not even sure if we should follow the time table that had been released already. homeworks are still not done, how awesome is that. NOT. but i can't wait to meet my friends tho'!

but the sad part is that, i can't meet my favourite teachers )': Mrs Goh, my math teacher and Mr Foo, my chemistry teacher. when they teach us in class, it's not so mundane. we can actually understand the topic better. when they had their last say on the school stage, me and ain literally cried. it was so sad lah come on. the whole class loves them. and yeah, they are superior in class that's why they get high appreciation. i admire them so much.... their absence would be the last thing i would ask for. but too bad, shit happens :/

Mr Foo on the far left and Mrs Goh on the far right. 

the school already replaced them.......and i'm not happy with the teachers who will be replacing them. there you go = HELL BEGINS............................

but on the brighter side, i'll get to see Ms Selvi! i just think she's a good teacher. and i'm lucky that she's my form teacher, honestly. haha! 

and definitely! 

ME AINIIE MAI! 

yay, can't wait to go school with them this monday. finally we can eat together like always :3 hehe.

i miss my adorable juniors already ): 

okay, i think that's it for today. MOM WANTS TO WATCH HER DRAMA ONLINE.....AGAIN. gonna blog tomorrow again. have a pleasant night! 

much love, xx

oh my title? HAHAHAHA CREDITS TO DAYAH AND NANA! <3

DON'T TELL ME.......

HI READERS! 

i'm terribly sorry for the late update. hehe, currently it's 1.25am. 

HAD FUN WITH THEM! my dear juniors..

Everyone was late. actually NO. I WAS LATE. AS USUAL! haha, i'm so sorry guys. they're kind enough to wait for me, the princess for the day.  nana is the queen, pfft *flips hair* monarch huh.

so it was just me, nana, dayah, inah, heefzaan and ferid! <3

had our late lunch at burger king. FINALLY! i actually prefer burger king rather than eating at macdonalds. macdonald is like everywhere, and burger king? not really. the burgers there are phenomenal! when you bite the juicy robust beef patty...... it's like heaven on earth. burger king subdues me...you know, makes me calm down a lil'

headed straight to orchard! walked around ION and ferid had to go home ): something happened, so yeah. 

headed to far east plaza to window shop! it was fun laughing around with them, loads of sniggering. dayah and heefzaan can't stop dancing in public! well, can't blame them. they're dancers anyway, atleast they danced well. hehehe but you know what! i think the way they dressed up just now was really nice, presentable, and yup. THEY LOOK GOOD. 

ferid with his vans, heefzaan with his dr.martens, dayah with his high cut converse.

SO BACK TO THE POINT! 

we chilled at macdonalds and had some drinks. (not alchohol, lol) and took pictures...pictures...pictures and more pictures. 

again, we started to chuckle and made noises which attracted the attention of the tourist who were there. OH AND REALLY THEY DIDN'T MIND. instead, they were smilling at us. MUAHAHAHAHA. 

while walking back to the mrt station, we saw cute little puppies walking along the pathway, and i was like " SO CUTE!!!" the dog barked at me........LIKE REALLY? I COMPLIMENTED YOU AND YOU BARK AT ME? how dare you. now the epic moment comes in, INAH JUMPED ON THE BENCH . HAHAHAHAHA. seriously, it was hilarious. everybody looked at us when we screamed. ahahahahahha, SEE I CAN'T STOP LAUGHING. hahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahahahahahahah. okay i think that's enough.

so we ended up bouncing back to marina bay and headed back home. we were so tired! heard songs from ' the beatles'. thanks to my sayang heefzaan, i'm now addicted to their songs. it's super nice, don't you think so? i mean, come on. THE BEATLES!! they're legendary. they're pretty cute too. hehehe. i like british boys, hais. no wait, I LOVE THEM. god, they're so cute i feel like rapping them. HAHAHA. well hello, i am a girl after all. i'm suppose to love guys. SPEAKING OF WHICH.....nana kept touching my butt just now. god, she kept touching me!!! f.y.i i'm lesbophobic. i just don't like girls to touch me like "rubber rubber" LOL. i mean if it's a hug or what i'm ok with it. 

let's cut to the chase, shall we? PICTURES TIME.

my juniors <3 love you guys, a lot.

DAYAH SAMSURI. NANA SALUMAT. YASMIN ZORLU.

goofheads! forever kecoh ~

LOL!! 

Didn't know my juniors were that kpo. HEHEHE.

um...........krik krik

who run the world? girls!

eiffel tower. konon nya kat paris actually. padehal, tak. 

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHA!!

i was literally standing away from them. LOL. IT WAS EMBARRASSING! k, ferid horny.

IT'S NICE I TELL YOU.

SO MY JUNIORS WANTED A SPECIAL POST. 

heefzaan. or should i say heefzayn. hahahaha! guess what's his age?  13.  and to tell you the truth, he  is the coolest kid i've ever met. he's the relax type of guy, very cute. sense of style? perfecto. he wouldn't mess with you if you won't create any shit. and yes of course, he's my junior from admiralty primary and also in sembawang secondary.  he's willing to hear my problems and we will share our thoughts and opinions. i'll listen to his girl problems too. right  heefzaan? hahaha!  and yup, he's my zayn! yay. no lah, our zayn. he irritates the hell out of us but also crack us up with his actions. silly boy, but cool.  love you to bits heefzaan! xx

ferid and nana saluuuuuumat. hehe. ferid forever horny. HAHAHA JUST KIDDING. he's so funny lah, my god. his expressions all, tak boleh angkat. he's sec one too! but yet, he's so close to us already :3 i love that!
nana? PFFT. queen lah konon. hehehe. she's the best junior you can ever ask for, she's much more wiser and mature this time round. not like before. she's always there for me,  helping me in malay dance. seriously. i love her a lot. and i can't imagine.... my life without her. she's beautiful <3 BUT STOP TOUCHING MY BUTT!  love you guys. muahh xx

INAHARINAH. ignore heefzaan. haha! kidding bitch.
what can i say about her? so annoying yet lovable. she's a laughing gas i'm telling you. when she laugh, i also laugh. I DON'T KNOW WHY. HER LAUGH IS SO CONTAGIOUS. sucha pretty girl.  i love her presence!  she mean a lot to me and also to us. xx

ALAMAK NI CUTE BABY BROTHER I.
okay, this is probably not the best picture of him. he's way hotter than this. yes, he's very very good-looking.  hais macam mana salina tk terpikat. did i mention he's a great dancer too? oh yes he is. he's so kind, caring. so apologetic at times. he will always give in and try to admit his mistakes. and i really respect him for that. so much courage to do it. it never falter. love you baby brother, study hard. xx

SEEE!!!!!!!!!!!! horny bastard lah nana )':

well okay guys. i think that's it for today. gonna blog again tomorrow, for sure. got lots to say! because of time constrain now, i'll stop here. hehehe.

thank you guys for reading! 

much love, xx

sometimes...........

Hi guys!
back for another post. hehehe. was doing my english essay and i shoved it to another side to blog. haha, so much for "HOMEWORK DAY!" it's okay. i realised that those who scored well for O's are the ones who do last minute work. BUT!! i'm not trying to say last minute work is good. just saying that it works! okay, only for certain people, i guess. at this stage, being in secondary 5, i'm suppose to be hardworking, meticulous etc. but.....................

OKAY LET'S MOVE ON.

Family and friends are important people in our lifes. they support us, crack us up when we're at the lowest point of our life, accepts us, sticks with us whenever something bad happens and even the good times too and more. don't you think so?

But....sometimes. we feel neglected. sometimes, i feel neglected.  i know, i know, it's indigenous to us humans to feel that way once in a while. but you know that moment when your friend doesn't need your help anymore and they leave you hanging? yeah that. they found new friends in life and they'll leave you. found their gf/bf in life and they'll leave you. sick and tired of your boring side and they'll leave you. all those come hand in hand. i always feel that way sometimes....left out. maybe i'm not a fun person or whatsoever. but i suppose that's me. i'm not that fun, bubbly type. i don't know how to describe myself. but whatever it is, i don't find myself funny or bubbly etc.

during the june holidays, i realised that i love being alone. in solitude. i love that! being solitude makes you think better, feel better (sometimes) but overall it's a good time for you to reflect. i think every humans have to reflect on themselves. you know, to.......improve :)

OKAY. I SOUND AS IF I'M IN A...................................................melancholy state.
let's cut to the chase!
arrangement not in order!!

they're always here for me. cheering me up. ESP MY ANNOYING SISTER.  e'mir and my mom who nags at me :') love them.

my family, what i am left with now :') 

my babies :')  we got close eversince camp. i felt the love from them . they're like my brothers and sisters.  DID I MENTION THAT THEY'RE SUPER CUTE? hais. they are. i love them so much, i don't.... i  don't really know what i'll do if i'm not around them. <3

ARGH. HOW CAN I SAY THIS? they're like half of me! i love them a lot. my two bestest friend in this whole wide world. Y.A.M! we go through shit together, happy times too. we get silly right infront of each other. call each other names, NONI! RACOON! RUSA! MONYET! YASMINA! and more :') i love them as much as i love my family.

fir and ayel. the two most kecoh boys i've met.  the boys don't really know we miss them. we'll y.a.m does...a lot. remember all the studying during n levels? hahaha. best moments of my life. we were there for each other, listening to their girl problems and they listen to our guy problem. hehehe. 5 of us were close....before.  i still love you guys. 

AHHH THIS ONE. hahaha BOOBOO! she's so manja. sometimes i feel like killing her. hahaha, she's my one direction partner i should say. hehe. we always dream together, right naj? always having the same thought. i love being beside her, makes me feel.... idk special. she will laugh to my silly jokes, and i love her for that :')

THEY CALL ME MEAN. my two primary school friends. cheera and wirda. i've known them for long, too long.  we're suppose to go in the some secondary school but......shit happens. but i'm glad that they've never forgotten me. i want to be there for them more. you know to pay up for all those years that "i've not been with them" get what i mean? i'm always myself when i'm around them. really that's why i love you guys.

they're so caring, THEY DON'T MAKE ART CLASS SILENT. hehehe, i love it when they're around. they're so hilarious. it makes my day sometimes. we make fun of each other. i guess,  it's worth hanging out with them. love you babes.

Y.A.Y! yasmin ainiie yi ling. hehehehe. WHAT CAN I SAY. yi ling, she's super nice.  but too formal sometimes.  they're  like a part of me. we can relate to one another, understand, willing to listen. no words can express my love for them. muah <3

SKINNY. she's so sotong. she's there for me whenever i needed help.  i love her :)

SO SORRY IF YOUR PICTURE IS NOT UP THERE. will do another one soon. hehehe. 

hehehehehehehehehehehhehehehehehehehhehehehehehehehehehehhehehehehehehehhehehehehehheeehehehe

i just wanna say that, you guys mean a lot to me. sometimes i don't show it. but you guys must know that i really appreciate your presence. it means a lot.  i just hope you guys won't let me down by thinking that you guys don't mean anything to me :') 

after all those years, shit happens. we gain friends and lose friends.

so sorry guys if i took a long time for this. someone called me just now, and we had a bit of an issue. wouldn't want to elaborate it here. 

shall stop here.

i'm not sure of the plans tomorrow ): THIS IS SAD. 

BOOOHOOOO. 

HOPE YOU GUYS LOVE MY POST AND PLEASE DO HAVE A SERENE NIGHT! HEHEHE. 

much love, xx

first one!

hi guys! omg. first post. after so long of not blogging. so yes, IM FINALLY BACK! hehehe. i don't know why but i just feel like blogging. maybe to share feelings, thoughts and some other stuff. i still suck in this, I DON'T KNOW HOW TO SET MY PROFILE OR EVEN DO MY BACKGROUND and all those shit. lol. maybe i shall blog a lil' while.

so today! there was art class. was supposed to go with Ain and Zizi, but they overslept. hehe, so they decided not to go.. so me too. furthermore, if i went for the class, it'll be awkward. it'll be soooooo silent.... KRIK KRIK. so it's okay. i went for the class 3 days straight anyway. i decided to meet my juniors at sembawang, so we could hang out. hehee, they're so cute. i love the bond that we have. like you know, brothers and sisters.

i keep dwelling on my homework. argh, THAT'S THE ONLY THING ON MY MIND ANYWAY. i can't seem to find the mood nor the energy to finish it up. sigh, and surprise surprise, next week = BACK TO SCHOOL. oh fuck.

HAHAHA! i like that face, although it's scary --->

not really enjoying my holidays, seriously. not doing anything productive either. what a waste. but i can't dwell on it no more.
shall try to find a way to solve this blog thingy........... now.
much love! xx