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Hi guys!
back for another post. hehehe. was doing my english essay and i shoved it to another side to blog. haha, so much for "HOMEWORK DAY!" it's okay. i realised that those who scored well for O's are the ones who do last minute work. BUT!! i'm not trying to say last minute work is good. just saying that it works! okay, only for certain people, i guess. at this stage, being in secondary 5, i'm suppose to be hardworking, meticulous etc. but.....................

OKAY LET'S MOVE ON.

Family and friends are important people in our lifes. they support us, crack us up when we're at the lowest point of our life, accepts us, sticks with us whenever something bad happens and even the good times too and more. don't you think so?

But....sometimes. we feel neglected. sometimes, i feel neglected.  i know, i know, it's indigenous to us humans to feel that way once in a while. but you know that moment when your friend doesn't need your help anymore and they leave you hanging? yeah that. they found new friends in life and they'll leave you. found their gf/bf in life and they'll leave you. sick and tired of your boring side and they'll leave you. all those come hand in hand. i always feel that way sometimes....left out. maybe i'm not a fun person or whatsoever. but i suppose that's me. i'm not that fun, bubbly type. i don't know how to describe myself. but whatever it is, i don't find myself funny or bubbly etc.

during the june holidays, i realised that i love being alone. in solitude. i love that! being solitude makes you think better, feel better (sometimes) but overall it's a good time for you to reflect. i think every humans have to reflect on themselves. you know, to.......improve :)

OKAY. I SOUND AS IF I'M IN A...................................................melancholy state.
let's cut to the chase!
arrangement not in order!!

they're always here for me. cheering me up. ESP MY ANNOYING SISTER.  e'mir and my mom who nags at me :') love them.

my family, what i am left with now :') 

my babies :')  we got close eversince camp. i felt the love from them . they're like my brothers and sisters.  DID I MENTION THAT THEY'RE SUPER CUTE? hais. they are. i love them so much, i don't.... i  don't really know what i'll do if i'm not around them. <3

ARGH. HOW CAN I SAY THIS? they're like half of me! i love them a lot. my two bestest friend in this whole wide world. Y.A.M! we go through shit together, happy times too. we get silly right infront of each other. call each other names, NONI! RACOON! RUSA! MONYET! YASMINA! and more :') i love them as much as i love my family.

fir and ayel. the two most kecoh boys i've met.  the boys don't really know we miss them. we'll y.a.m does...a lot. remember all the studying during n levels? hahaha. best moments of my life. we were there for each other, listening to their girl problems and they listen to our guy problem. hehehe. 5 of us were close....before.  i still love you guys. 

AHHH THIS ONE. hahaha BOOBOO! she's so manja. sometimes i feel like killing her. hahaha, she's my one direction partner i should say. hehe. we always dream together, right naj? always having the same thought. i love being beside her, makes me feel.... idk special. she will laugh to my silly jokes, and i love her for that :')

THEY CALL ME MEAN. my two primary school friends. cheera and wirda. i've known them for long, too long.  we're suppose to go in the some secondary school but......shit happens. but i'm glad that they've never forgotten me. i want to be there for them more. you know to pay up for all those years that "i've not been with them" get what i mean? i'm always myself when i'm around them. really that's why i love you guys.

they're so caring, THEY DON'T MAKE ART CLASS SILENT. hehehe, i love it when they're around. they're so hilarious. it makes my day sometimes. we make fun of each other. i guess,  it's worth hanging out with them. love you babes.

Y.A.Y! yasmin ainiie yi ling. hehehehe. WHAT CAN I SAY. yi ling, she's super nice.  but too formal sometimes.  they're  like a part of me. we can relate to one another, understand, willing to listen. no words can express my love for them. muah <3

SKINNY. she's so sotong. she's there for me whenever i needed help.  i love her :)

SO SORRY IF YOUR PICTURE IS NOT UP THERE. will do another one soon. hehehe. 

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i just wanna say that, you guys mean a lot to me. sometimes i don't show it. but you guys must know that i really appreciate your presence. it means a lot.  i just hope you guys won't let me down by thinking that you guys don't mean anything to me :') 

after all those years, shit happens. we gain friends and lose friends.

so sorry guys if i took a long time for this. someone called me just now, and we had a bit of an issue. wouldn't want to elaborate it here. 

shall stop here.

i'm not sure of the plans tomorrow ): THIS IS SAD. 

BOOOHOOOO. 

HOPE YOU GUYS LOVE MY POST AND PLEASE DO HAVE A SERENE NIGHT! HEHEHE. 

much love, xx